why smile?
i ask this almost every day. as my head beats hard,
a temple pulsing in my brain. as my eyes still tear
with each hardship that i face. the stress, pain, exhaustion
that keeps me up so late at night. as i rant, scream, CRY!
in anguish or in fear. as i sniffle each sniffle, and hold back each tear.
as i live a life, in rants, through fears.
as i give up on some hopes, hope for some plans.
all i want to know is,
why should i smile?