that feeling...

that feeling...

when everything explodes.

when your eyes well up,

and your throat closes.

that feeling....

where you want to whisper their name.

when you need a friend,

and a hug more than anything.

that feeling....

when you know they've won.

when you can feel your life slipping,

and it slides right out of your hands

that feeling...

when you know it went wrong.

when you feel like losing hope,

and you know it's all done.

that feeling.

falling

i wanted to fall,

to finally let myself feel that bliss.

but once i fell,

i realized, you see me as just this.

you see me as a listener.

i great friend, a good person.

but what if i told you,

that i fell... hard.

that i fell for the first time,

that i let myself do this.

what would you say?

if you knew that you were my first REAL crush.

what would you say?

if you knew that i never let myself fall

what would you say?

if i said i wished for anything but this.

i've wished

its times like these...

where i wish i were understood.

that sometimes, i could be left behind,

and others,

when i was just too good.

i wish there were chances,

that i could take!

but i am, who i am,

and if i took those chances,

itd be a mistake.

ive hoped time and time again,

that my heart would be searched for,

just loved so much!

that i could be cherished,

that my heart means more.

miss

i miss those days.

the ones with lightning bugs and old glass jars

when i played snake on my mom's nokia cell phone

and little kids still would wear overalls.

i miss those times when disney was classic

the times when TV shows didn't let kissing be a normal occurrence

and the movies were honest

animations a new creation.

i miss those nights

when stars were gazed upon

when the music genre loved was pop!

and i didn't feel safe without a night light to sleep.

i miss the times

where life could stay simple

where technology didn't seem insane

where i always loved my family

and drama wasn't so insane/

i miss the heart

in people

the smiles people used to wear

i miss hope and chance

i miss the imagination i once had.

i miss a lot....

but the generations now miss more.