i sit here. eyes filling up.
wishing that i could explain.
these fears inside of me.
the stress, pain, difficulty... i have with my life today.
i dont understand, how i could ever feel such pain.
ive lost something, that was always near my heart.
hope, love, courage...

i sit here exhuasted...
as i lose who ive always been.
that girl... who was always smiling in the end.